I’m scared to admit it but I think I finally got to the place which I was aiming for during last year. After so many months of struggle I succeeded in explaining myself that my past can’t determine presence in any way. Despite an enormous fear that was left after my last emotional commitment I’ve decided to open myself to the most wonderful person I’ve met in my life. I’m still the same person I’ve always been but somehow he manages to get the best out of me. He is my rock and I swear, I’m trying my best to be his. He sees me the way that no one ever had. Every day I’m looking at him and I can’t believe how lucky I’m to have him by my side. Even now, when he is sleeping right next to me snoring, I want to lay down and let him hug me cause then I feel like his arms are not only embracing my waist but, what’s more important, my heart and soul. I’ve never felt that safe, calm and happy.
So Dear Santa, I can’t find a way to thank you for what you gave me this year. All I can do is to promise you that I will try to not fuck this up.